God and Sexual Assault

When You Can’t Feel God – Part II

We are never alone.

It is easy to feel all alone when you are a survivor of sexual assault. People do not want to hear about pain and hurt. Honestly, I don’t even like to talk about it with others because it triggers what happened to me – so I complexly understand. However, it makes it difficult to have support, other than a therapist, when walking this journey in recovery.

However, we aren’t all alone when we stop and truly think about it. Yes, I know we can “feel” alone. The house is empty. No one calls or texts. When we are out and talk to people it is surface conversation about trivial matters. There is no one to consult about matters most people have someone to talk things over with like what refrigerator would be good to buy.

The truth is not a feeling. God is with us at all times. it’s a fact. Think about it for a minute. Why are you able to stand and walk around on earth and not fly away into space? God is keeping us here through gravity. Think of all the ways He’s taking care of us that we don’t even stop to consider. The earth rotating and the sun shining. When I stop and think about all that is happening and that God is in control I am amazed.

Yet, I want to feel His presence. I want a hand to hold. Someone to hug me or hold me when my anxiety feels like it’s going to give me a heart attack. When the tears won’t stop because my depression’s deepened and the weight of all the trauma is too much.

It is when I start to say, “I’m all alone.” I have to stop and not make an agreement with the statement. It is not fact. We are not alone on this earth. God is right here with us. So, to help remind myself today I looked up several verses to keep on hand and remind me I’m not alone. I’m going to share them with you so you know God is with you too. Maybe you’ll want to write them down somewhere so you’ll see them often and the next time you say, “I’m all alone.” God can direct you to His Truth.

The first one I found is Jesus talking in Matthew. He says, “and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:20

Always with us. To the very end of age. From the beginning until the end comes God will be with us. Whether our end is when we die and go to heaven or when Jesus returns. Always with us.

One of my favorite verses has always been in Romans 8. “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39

Satan may try to convince us we’re alone, but nothing can separate us from God. Nothing. Ever.

Finally, in the Psalms, David reminds us, “Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.” Psalm 139:7-10

There is absolutely no where we can go where God is not with us. We may feel like we’re in deep dark places, but God is still present.

I claim these promises today and hold onto God’s Truth because when I can’t “feel” God He is still right here with me, and He’s with you too. Hold on to that today, and remember because God’s always with us, you are never alone.

© 2019 Susan M. Clabaugh. All Rights Reserved.





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